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Sunday, January 18, 2015

He's my baby.

Pyae Hein Zaw.
He's the love of my life.
He's someone I don't want to live my life without.
We've been together for around 3 months, unofficially officially who cares.
All he has been doing is putting my happiness before his.
He always tries his best to keep me happy.
No matter what he does, he thinks of me first.
Because to him, I'm his first priority.
He's the type of guy who looks all tough and shit outside but is actually the kindest person on the inside.
Or maybe he's only like that to me.
In front of me, he can be my strongest man, my protection, my walls.
At the same time, also my biggest fluffy cotton candy, my baby boy, my kiddy.
He loves me like no one has ever before.
He shows me, gives me love like I'm the only girl in the world.
He doesn't care even when I look like shit, he doesn't judge when I break down for no apparent reason and he doesn't leave when I need someone.
He's my comfort.
I'm stubborn, very stubborn, too stubborn to listen to anyone.
But he never gives up, he can stay up all night just to try cheering me up even though it's near mission impossible.
He will tell me over and over that my flaws don't matter, that they aren't even flaws to him.
He'd make me forget about my insecurities, maybe not forever. But when he's around, I know I am loved.
For all 3 months, he's the one giving out his all to maintain the relationship. To make sure we go strong.
Now he's tired.
And it's my turn to make sure he's okay. It's my turn to remind him that I care a lot, that I love him just as much, to tell him that I'm here.
It is my job to let him know that he's being loved. That I'm not hesitating to pull him into my arms.
Baby, if you're reading, remember that I love you.
Maybe even more than I love Justin, and that's a lot coming from me.
You've given me your all, and now it's your turn to receive, alright?
You're my everything, don't ever doubt that. Everything. You're my world.
Even the thought of you leaving hurts too much. How would I ever want to live without you? The pain will be unbearable.
I know I've became a huge disappointment lately. But I promise I'm trying. It'll be worth it.
Just give me one more chance to prove it to you.
I only need to be told once. There's no more next time. I don't allow myself to hurt you like I did today.
I'm very very sure that I love you. And that's enough for me to start thinking about the ways to prove my love.
Just one more time. I won't let you down.
You're my one and only, love.

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